I've come to somewhat of a crossroads. I have been struggling with something for a while. Some people know the struggle others may not. I have felt called into ministry for a while now. However, I haven't been able to figure out all the terms yet.
I know, I know, you shouldn't put terms or conditions on God. I have and I know I shouldn't have. He/She'll forgive me I'm sure. I was once asked by a great speaker and pastor,"What are you running from?"
I replied, "I'm not so much running from as I am running towards in a round about sort of way."
You see I've felt called for a while now. I've never seen myself as the typical pastor though. I think there is a movement going on right now that needs to be fostered. I see more and more contemporary churches/services springing up all over the place. I think it should be taken to the next level.
Why can't Church be just as entertaining as going to a rock concert?
That's the type of church I want to be a part of. That is the type of Pastor I could see myself as. Not that I want to be a rock star...of course I think everybody does a little bit. I just don't think church needs to be a time when you sit in a pew and read your bible and pray. It should be a celebration an awesome display to glorify God. Whether I am the leader behind the scenes or the guy on stage...I'd love to start or be a part of this movement.
Which brings me to my current position. I want to find this position, I think that's pretty clear. I am a little nervous about it because I have been looking for jobs not of this nature. I have been interviewed by Ohio State University at Lima and am in the second round of candidates for a position in New Orleans. I will more than likely take the position if I am offered one of them.
I have been praying for discernment for a while now, at least since last year, on what to do with my life that will glorify God and serve his will for my life. Recently I felt a push again towards ministry and the first thought came early in the morning. I got this feeling that I am suppose to put together a Christian concert. I have the skills. I have the desire. But I also felt like there was more to it than just putting on a concert. I thought maybe it should be "THE" Christian rock concert. But, then it sort of hit me; it should be a Christian rock concert church. A worship service done every week that felt much like a rock concert. I feel that there is something out there of this nature and am terrified that I will find it and then be offered a position at one of those two schools and I'll have to make a decision.
I think I've already made my decision. I just need the offers now. To be perfectly honest I would choose to follow this ministry idea provided it is feasible and won't put me further into the poor house. I would gladly choose it over a university position. I don't think I can do both. I could be a part of something of this nature as a university professor, but do I want it to be part time?
So now I'm praying that the University positions fall through and an offer comes from the Lord. That statement would have scared me before, it doesn't now. I'm not afraid. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
So whoever reads this-why I'm blogging about this I have no idea-if you're a believer and feel comfortable, say a prayer for me, please. I can use all the help I can get. I need to go back to my job now. I'm designing lights for a children's theatre production of Tales of a Fourth Grade Nothing. I have about half the show cued and I have until tonight to get it done...I think I've procrastinated enough now. Thanks for listening....or whatever you want to call this.
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